He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not! by myra on Blogster

The last article I have is about my self-assessment on singleness. And I told you guys that I am very happy and satisfied being a singleton. But I want to share to you about my previous struggle in this area. I bet you can relate to me. I will tell you my love story.

Just as any single, I also dream of meeting that " right" man. My heart yearns for intimacy with an opposite sex , someone whom I can share my thoughts and my feelings with. Someone that I can lean on and someone who loves me for who I am.

I think I have dated several guys before. Not so formal dating. I have been pursued by some good guys. But to tell you the truth, I have never yet encountered someone that I really like and likes me likewise. It has always been a one way kind of attraction. And that made me frustrated. I remember confiding to my male friend ( oh I have lots of male friends) like this, " oh...why can't I find a boyfriend?". He said angrily to me, " You are such a foolish woman...you know the reason why".:-)

Bu here's the very struggle of my life so far as a single woman. I love a guy who never love me in return I guess. This man I met 3 1/2 years ago. Since then i have been praying hard for him. We became friends--casual friends.We keep in touch by email. Since he lives abroad we don't get to see each other very often. He travels a lot and when I see him maybe twice or once a year.
He is all the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Whew that's pretty sentimental and romantic..forgive me.:-).I believe that I love this guy. I am not talking on emotion alone. After I have made personal assessment I believe he is what I really want...even if he doesn't show any interest in me. Gosh..can you believe that? Do you think i am insane waiting for a guy that will not probably reciprocate my feeling?. There are a few times that I want to give up waiting for this guy. Yes, there are times of weakness that I want to be open to dating someone just to keep him off my thoughts. It is a very difficult test of faith.I didn't fail in this area so far. I have been firmed that I will wait for this man even if it takes a long time. I remember telling my friend, " oh, I am not sure if i can wait for him any longer...but I will try". Yes, it's not easy to wait for someone.

But the good news is, God is giving me strength of the heart and a different perspective. There's a joy in my heart that my life is in His hands. And he cares even in my needs and meet the deepest longings of my heart.
Now, I have never been happier. It won't matter anymore whether God will give me that man or someone else. Or even if I will be single for the rest of my life.
I am content to whatever situation I am. Joy really depends on God and not on circumstances. God is really amazing.

5 comments on He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not!

mysecretplace said 1 years ago
[SMILE]I can relate to some of the things you've said here and God is sooooo very amazing...the joy of the Lord is our strength....the joy that comes from Him just has a way of making everything and all circumstances alright...[THUMBUP][HEART]
enochwar said 1 years ago
I found when I was single that my greatest growth came after a "heart breaking breakup". Strange but true.[HUH][SMILE]
unlimited said 1 years ago
[WINK][WINK][WINK]
royalty said 1 years ago
Oh, how we believers need the joy of the Lord and His great love to fill us up daily. He must be 1st place in our lives. All consuming ,if you will! I remember going thru a Great trial in my marriage. My husband was going to leave me. It was devastating, like a living death to my soul. But the Lord was my help (glory to Him) and I realized if my husband abandons me God will never leave me or forsake me. So I would mourn for the loss but if God would ever leave me I would be dead!! I continue to be married, by His grace and look to the Lord for my peace, my joy, my hope, my life! Blessings to you![HEART] Our marriages are in His keeping, just as your future mate is in His keeping[HEART]
doublej said 1 years ago
Myra i feel you sometimes it happenes that you like someone and they seem not to connect i am a victim, i have just had a break up that really hurt me and looked like i had gotten myself hooked with this girl who claimed to Love me seriously there was no chemistry from my side of the story but she was manipulative and made sure we had something cooking between us, thnak God for the Holy Spirit, i went to church and as a youth pastor i always ask God to help me to share with the memebers of my church what he as helped me to deal with.
so God lend me to decision making and i realised from the word go i never did not make a decission about this relation but that it was manipulation...so you know what happened it wasnt easy for both of us but it was worth it atleast we were real with one another.
be real myra if the love is not two way its not love at all, may be a matter of convinience or something but not love sometimes its just lust. you better get out before things get too far to get out.[ROLLEYES][HEART][HEART][KISS]